Attempts to complete a dream

First off, I realize its been a while, life has been a lot lately, when things get really overwhelming I tend to hide away and bubble up. Even things like writing for my own want becomes almost impossible. So here I am, trying to get back at life and this blog thing…..

When I was little and people would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would tell them veterinarian or teacher, BUT I really wanted to be was an author. From a fairly young age, I would doodle little stories, all over my binders and notebooks. In my 37 years of life I have written about fifty short stories and incomplete thoughts that got lost in emails and boxes in storage. I always tell people that I don’t want to die without having completed a book, and yet here I am 37 years old, without anything completed. I always have reasons why I cant start writing or once I do get a burst of inspiration, I have ten reasons why I need to rethink what I am writing, even if I like the direction I am going in. I worry about writers block, I worry about rejection from a publisher, but with modern technology being what it is, I can now publish my own book on sites online, no publishers needed and yet here I am, not writing anything, wishing I would finish something.

I lay in bed sometimes and think that I am 37 years old and quickly approaching 40 and I don’t want to look back on my life and regret never trying to complete the one thing that I have always wanted to achieve. So many negative and positive things that have happened in my life, and through everything the thought in the back of my mind was always, “This would make a great story.” Yet every time I would sit down to write about it, it would end up being rather short and then I would get discouraged and scratch the whole thing. So what do I write? What genre do I attempt to write about? Are there books out there where its just a bunch of small stories blended together? I am in the research phase right now, might just start writing and see what I come up with, then I can decide what direction or genre I want to take with mine.

Anyways, wish me luck, here I go….